well, i haven't been speak english for ages, i think i may just pick it up a while before i totally forget it.
they say english is hard, and i admit it is. Expecially you have to remember the order of 26 letters. well my mom is sleep in my place now, its Sept.09 2023. My mom keep conversing me to go back to my hometown Shantou. Not only agree me to took 3 of my cats home, but also conmit me that i can do whatever i want over there, as long as i am home. Jesus, how can i say no about that? beside i can barely do nothing with my mom's will. She keep missing me makes me feel uncomfortable.
my English is so basic, but it doesn't matter. Lets see how far i will go if i write in English.
Sometimes, deep inside my mind, i don't like drinking. If i am alone, i won't drink at all. Drinking is a thing that make people dizzy. I already dizzy enough, i don't need that thing. But the problem is i seems to drink a lot. And i figure it out that i drinking just want to be in the place that people drinks. And i am absorb with seeing the other people get drunk, i think talk with them is so funny and they are finally like me ----- a phyco. i finally find someone that can communicate with me, people finnaly know the whorld where i live for 20 years and makes me more happy is ---- they love this world. It really gives me the courage to move forward.
You may say, hey why don't you go to a bar and just watch and talk, and drink milk. Hey, my bro. Have you ever been to any bar? That place make people who not phyco, drinks. And you ask me, a phyco be there, and drink milk? How dare you, tell me which bar you went and i am sure the boss of that bar will come and kick your ass as long as he or she or they or them knows.
I am a Bipolar,since i was 10 years old. And i was surprise how i have mental illness for 9 years and nobody ever talk to me about it. My doctor said yeah cuz it have latency period, normally its 8 years. So maybe some of you ----- who read my word have phyco illness but you have no idea about it. and, and you will find that some of the feeling " normal people" have, are also the same feeling phyco will have. like lost sleep or get real high.
but it have a limit. of couse, but when we feel bad we will think " hey, its normal i am a phyco. " and we will keep sad. and then sad become something that we can suffer with. I think it can work for everybody, when you sad you can think "hey, i might in a latency period of become a phyco, and its normal to be sad for me. And, and, during the period i don't need pills yet, if i need pills i will see a real doctor and decide it. so the sad its normal for me." and you can suffer the saddness.
the reason i talk this much is, i think we should let everybody think, ok, assume. I think we should really assume that everbody on earth have mental illness. It will literally helps everyone! and nobody get hurts. We can even solve the discrimination of insanity, we can makes people advoid the stress of " become a phycho", or the stress of " i have a mental illness kid." Cuz everybody is phyco. We only have pills to control the serious harm to social behaior and the gives the ability to the person who can't even take care of themself.
What a wonderful life. YES! Finally ! A world that we are eqal,YES! We, phyco and normal people are eqal. It should be proposed. It should.
well, i haven't been speak english for ages, i think i may just pick it up a while before i totally forget it.
they say english is hard, and i admit it is. Expecially you have to remember the order of 26 letters. well my mom is sleep in my place now, its Sept.09 2023. My mom keep conversing me to go back to my hometown Shantou. Not only agree me to took 3 of my cats home, but also conmit me that i can do whatever i want over there, as long as i am home. Jesus, how can i say no about that? beside i can barely do nothing with my mom's will. She keep missing me makes me feel uncomfortable.
my English is so basic, but it doesn't matter. Lets see how far i will go if i write in English.
Sometimes, deep inside my mind, i don't like drinking. If i am alone, i won't drink at all. Drinking is a thing that make people dizzy. I already dizzy enough, i don't need that thing. But the problem is i seems to drink a lot. And i figure it out that i drinking just want to be in the place that people drinks. And i am absorb with seeing the other people get drunk, i think talk with them is so funny and they are finally like me ----- a phyco. i finally find someone that can communicate with me, people finnaly know the whorld where i live for 20 years and makes me more happy is ---- they love this world. It really gives me the courage to move forward.
You may say, hey why don't you go to a bar and just watch and talk, and drink milk. Hey, my bro. Have you ever been to any bar? That place make people who not phyco, drinks. And you ask me, a phyco be there, and drink milk? How dare you, tell me which bar you went and i am sure the boss of that bar will come and kick your ass as long as he or she or they or them knows.
I am a Bipolar,since i was 10 years old. And i was surprise how i have mental illness for 9 years and nobody ever talk to me about it. My doctor said yeah cuz it have latency period, normally its 8 years. So maybe some of you ----- who read my word have phyco illness but you have no idea about it. and, and you will find that some of the feeling " normal people" have, are also the same feeling phyco will have. like lost sleep or get real high.
but it have a limit. of couse, but when we feel bad we will think " hey, its normal i am a phyco. " and we will keep sad. and then sad become something that we can suffer with. I think it can work for everybody, when you sad you can think "hey, i might in a latency period of become a phyco, and its normal to be sad for me. And, and, during the period i don't need pills yet, if i need pills i will see a real doctor and decide it. so the sad its normal for me." and you can suffer the saddness.
the reason i talk this much is, i think we should let everybody think, ok, assume. I think we should really assume that everbody on earth have mental illness. It will literally helps everyone! and nobody get hurts. We can even solve the discrimination of insanity, we can makes people advoid the stress of " become a phycho", or the stress of " i have a mental illness kid." Cuz everybody is phyco. We only have pills to control the serious harm to social behaior and the gives the ability to the person who can't even take care of themself.
What a wonderful life. YES! Finally ! A world that we are eqal,YES! We, phyco and normal people are eqal. It should be proposed. It should.
每一个童年的梦想都值得用青春去捍卫!